Saturday, August 22, 2009
Learning
I just came back from my secondary school class outing.
The last one was quite some time back that i can't recall.
As usual the turnout of people is rather little and its always the same few people who turn up too.
Caught up on whats been going on in the life.
Girls working and guys studying. Nothing much. Same old. Same old.
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Going off track, my ex was at the outing too. [She's from the same class too]
And initially it was quite awkward but after a while we warmed up talking to each other. [it has to happen sooner or later right?]
While listening to her talking about her work and everything, i could see that its really different from what i used to see her for when in sec school.
Before reaching i was worried that i might have that kind of 'OH NO WHAT IF I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER' feeling.
But after sitting down and talking to her a little while and listening too, i realised its all gone.
She is totally different from what i used to see in her, what i used to like from her.
To top if all off, she now smokes. Realised only when we were heading to my friend's car for a ride back home. And i was shocked. REAL shocked
I went over to her and asked.
KoL: i didn't know you smoke
She: ha ya but i don't really smoke
KoL: *gave the 'hmmm?' face*
She: i only take from people [meaning she's more of a social smoker]
KoL: oh..
She: *silence*
KoL: anyway try not to smoke
She: abit only la. i only smoke when got people smoke around me
KoL: well its still not healthy
*silence* then...
She: i'm just starting to learn [her profession requires her to entertain cilents therefore i see the validity of her reasoning]
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By this point, i totally felt disappointed and disgusted cause she was smoking.
Disappointed because i totally despise girls who smoke and she has joined their ranks
Disgusted because of 'reason' she gave.
I think its stupid to learn how to smoke given the fact that she's 24 now.
Smoking is a bad lifestyle. You do not learn things like this. You pick it up.
Your choice in life is to pick up smoking. Why? because she do not want to put her cilent down if they offer her a drink or smoke.
This bit protrays she has chosen work over her well-being.
Yes i know ultimately by doing so, she can acquire more favourability and business. But that shows how strong your principles in life are.
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Whats i'm getting at is, i'm happy that its all over between us long ago because i cannot keep up with her. It was indeed like what she said last time. That our goals in life wasn't the same.
In fact i'm very relieved.
And it showed me how truly blessed i am to have MC. and that MC do not pick up things she shouldn't.
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To my ex, if you're reading.. no hard feelings for my blog entry.
I'm just stating my view. We'll still be friends however shall remain forever that way.
The KoL was answered
01:15
